I left my corporate job on 7/21/17 in order to help showcase Nature for Mother Nature fans online. I did not arrive easily at this decision since my corporate job paid extremely well and included amazing benefits. Alas, the one benefit I was not easily allowed was the time to immediately pursue any and all wild events happening any and all moments of every day throughout the world. I know it would have helped me greatly to see more Nature during the work week, so that is what I’ve set out to bring to you. Stay tuned!
First Monday of Lent
Monday, March 7, 2022 1:36 PM
Today is March 7, 2022. Is there anyone out there who is “giving up” for Lent? So far I’ve gone without meat and I’ve pretty much spent my time planting a garden. Yesterday itself I uprooted a heavy and hefty tree stump. It was quite a challenge. I took the stump out to replace the formerly toppled tree with new life. The kicker is that we will get one more freeze at the end of this week per the forecast. Still I remain hopeful.
If you have been following my “Video Log” (VLOG) on YouTube, thanks for joining me on the journey! I hope you are being midlly entertained! I myself am continuing to address things from last year it seems. The first picture in this post right here is one of two similar guitars which were damaged in similar ways after being shipped by completely different people from different states, etc. Why did I have the same outcome?
Anyway, I am not sure what to say anymore. Today I told my mother how little hope I have for the continuation of the world as we know it, conveniences and all. I don’t really care for the conveniences. I am thankful that I experienced them AND I recognize that if they did not damage the earth itself, they surely damaged my ability to talk sensibly and sustainably with my own fathers, step, in law, or even the real deal himself.
Where is my dad? Why can I not talk with him about these issues that we are facing? With the loss of our grandparents, I believe we lost all societal structure. Not many people “care” about one another, or so it would seem on the news and in the way our governments “care for” the people… Foreign or domestic. All in all, this topic… Lent… And the mention of religion itself… Have lost me a lot of “worldly” people. But time?
I’ve been granted an abundance of time… Time to think and reflect on what is going on, both personally and “professionally”. In my profession, I am a lost cause anymore. Who really pays attention to nature? Who is out there still paying for nature? Did Jesus himself pay the price by fasting for 40 days and 40 nights? Do we have complete irresponsibility and immunity from paying any true efforts ourselves? Our fathers… OR mothers?
I thank you so much for following along and paying attention for whatever reason you have been paying attention to this journey. As I return to the Big Bend over the next few weeks, I can’t help but wonder if I will be returning to my father at any point. Will he even look at me or listen to me? Will I be judged on his perception, or on that of the others with whom I do interact in real life? Is this even considered a “real” life anymore?
Nature is real, to me. We have taken from nature without really paying her back, I think. I do not distance myself from these truths. I only mean to reflect on these things and maybe because I can SEE truth, I might be able to HEAR the cries of nature and SPEAK the truth of what I see. ’Till next time, I will go reflect on my own sadness and I will perhaps now become the one who no longer waves or responds when we pass on the trails.